Resentment.

the feeling of displeasure

or indignation at some act, remark,

 person, place, etc.,

regarded as causing injury or insult.

Hawai'i, I hate you.

Years ago you stole a handful of my closest

Friends for an entire summer.

When I came to visit them,

You tried your damnedest to
drown me with your

deceiving, beautiful, warm waters.

You were unsuccessful.

Next, you tried to scare me away

with your cockroaches.

Success.

I have little to no tolerance for
 cockroaches.

I realized that we weren't meant
for each other.

Thus, I decided to stay away from you.

And I left it at that.

I didn't speak ill about you...

Regardless of our differences.

But now?

I have had enough.

I am getting married in ONE week from

This very day.

You still have my prospective husband

along with his entire family.

You have been awful to me Hawai'i.

Please give me my Josh back.

That's all I ask.

Then we can go our separate ways.

 For good.

Ugh.

I miss him.

:)

for the past two weeks,

i have resisted my second love...

two weeks from today,

 I will no longer have to resist

my first love.

jhf.

I am going to marry him so hard.

Shower.

a party given for a bestowal of presents of a specific kind, esp. such a party for a prospective

 BRIDE or prospective mother

2 Showers down, 2 more to go

To be honest, I haven't really

loved having these

"showers"

held in my honor.

Perhaps I just thought it a 

bizarre "tradition"

Different people throw me a party

Invite family, friends, neighbors

Everyone who is invited is

expected to come

bearing gifts

Some of these people I have never met

Have never spoken to

and perhaps never will again

This wasn't sitting right with me

So?

I researched it...The bridal shower, I mean.

Here is some information I found on the

origins:

The bridal shower is a custom that came about when a father disapproved of his daughter's
 marriage and refused
to provide a dowry to the couple.
Or when a poor woman's family might
 not have the money to provide a dowry for her.

The shower became the

alternative to the dowry. Supportive villagers (friends, family) would assemble and provide the bride a variety of household items for her new home.

In cases where the father disapproved of the marriage, these gifts would compensate for the dowry and allow her to marry the man of her choice.

Bridal showers were meant to
strengthen the ties between the bride and her friends, provide her moral support, and help her prepare for her marriage.
Gift giving dates from the 1890's.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bridal_shower

http://www.beallmansion.com/weddingsandeceptions/originofbridalshowers.html

I am all about:

strengthening relationships

receiving moral support

by way of house-relevant gifts

and

Marrying the man of my choice.

I look forward to my last two showers with

new eyes.

Ache.

To feel eager;
yearn; long

548 hours.

A little less than 23 days.

3 weeks.

07.01.10

Addicted

Devoted or given up to

a practice or habit or to something psychologically or physically habit-forming.

 

Have you ever heard that you are

eight times more

likely to accomplish a goal when you:

1) Write it down

and

2) Tell other people

?

Two birds with one stone.

As of today, I am officially off of the DC.